11 November 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE♥! im really bored. so im posting.
talking to edwin on msn now. you know, im dying to get ppl to talk to me on msn? i miss yuwen. ): HAHAHAHA she's my HTHT partner ♥ . yay i love her :D
im gonna plan for next week. i shall go out with yuwen. :) yay. okay also. 21nov, FAMILY BONDING NIGHT!♥ anyone going? :D tell me, ya? good girl/boy. :) yay you love me, of course.
tsk. im really bored to tears. D: someone talk to me?
sometimes maple is really boring. yeah. kill me please.
wanna go out with alot ppl this hols. alotalot ppl. and achieve something ; helping to solve crisis. like, im seriously indirectly facing one now. yes crisis! ROAR.
friends are really important people. you know, for me, its very hard to find someone to just sit there and listen to all my rants. maybe other than yuwen. and huifang. isnt it great just to go out with your BFF, best friend at least, and just talk about anything under the stars? or sun if you'd prefer. however, when i tell someone about how im feeling, i really hate it when the person lecture me and tell me to do this do that. im not a pet. roar. many ppl do that. thats why i stopped telling people who do this to me things. yeahs. im evil, yes, but. know your limit please.
however, im always glad to be there for someone, whoever who needs a friend to talk to, to lend a listening ear too. i'll be here. ~ yeahs. if you realise that you need a friend, turn around and i'll be there for you. ♥
yay me. okay i think i'll stop blogging. really, dont feel like blogging. no mood.
tadah. nobody cares about me, so yeah. bye.
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 19:35
09 November 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE!♥:D im back from combined school concert! it was an enjoyable & unforgettable one. even better than my sec1 combined concert with GESS.
for the past week, we had combined rehearsals with four other schools, namely gan eng seng, hai sing catholic, clementi town, & yusof ishak. at first, i really felt like skipping this concert, firstly, bcos its taking away my holidays free time! and, cos HSC reminds me of HIM. (youknow,iknow,weknow). yeah. but actually, no matter how tiring this was, i still presevere. HAHAHAHA.
well the choir rehearsals were long but fun! :D
firstly, when we first got together and did combined and sing Phantom Of The Opera, i was. WOW. the song is veryvery low, and the guys (tenor&bases) were WONDERFUL! its like. when they first sang, im totally melted on the floor. *shy* HAHAHAHA! for every rehearsal i was damn looking forward to the singing of phantom, cause i can hear the guys! oh my.
SECONDLY! the guys, not only they've got great voices, i spotted good looking ones too! mainly, two YUSOF ISHAK and one HAI SING CATHOLIC. omg. lol. one of the guy called simpson or sth, another called.. lets just call him white jacket. LOL. or dimple guy. HAHAHA both also kinda good looking. simpson's the soloist for paradise :o and, the HSC guy.. he looks mature to me, and kinda good-looking for the mature looking. aiya idk what im talking about. the guy with the hand in cast! lol :3 oh my. this is one of the things (or memories) i brought back :D LOL. :/
okay. thirdly, i've made some wonderful new friends there! :D hoho. people like wan tien and yangwenn from HSC, :D weimin and chinxuan from YISS :D i realised that yiss ppl are kinda good looking. hmm. no matter guy or girl. haha. i guess thats what made almost every girl talk about either white jacket guy or simpson. HAHAHA.
at first, for the first and starting of 2nd combined rehearsal, i told huilin mei about how i was feeling, like, i'd feel reallyyyy sad when standing near HSC ppl. cause.. yeah. i know i shouldnt feel this way alr. but. HAH. i survived. no matter how much the pain was, i still survive. but i've to thank yuwen & huilin for listening to my... rantings? HAHAHA. end up being friends with HSC people :D actually i find HSC & YISS ppl more friendly than CTSS & GESS. maybe im always surrounded by HSC & YISS ppl. HAHAHA. yay another obstacle i've gone through. im stronger now. :D
you know, not all ppl are like him. i kinda like wantien & yangwenn. they seem to me like they're.. sisters? HAHAHA. they have this really close bond between them! and they're nice people. LOL. :D serious! they're nice people :D and yiss also quite friendly. haha. :D
yeah~ i shall shorten it.
soo....
yesterday was a tremendously tiring yet fulfulling day, a decision which i'll never regret. :D had two sessions, 3-5pm, 8-1opm. :D firstly i wanna thank bk, angela, yuwen, eugenia, felicia and alexia for coming down to support me :D i know i was really really very stiff cause im really nervous. but yeah thanks! :D had lots of fun throughout. i kept complaining to eunice ang, the HSC girl beside me that my heels hurt D: and like, they expect us to stand so longggggg. D: haha. roda and huilin keep disturbing me, commenting on my expression when both soloist singing paradise. HAHAHA. okay. whatever :3
anw the concert ended @ night with a super high paradise, and after curtains closed, we scream & shouted for joy! YAY! it was a really touching moment *smile* :D omg yay! :D
you know, i really hope we'd have another concert like this next year. but.. D: o levels next year!
die!
okay i shall stop here. im really lazy. you know, im kinda missing the ppl in concert, HAAHAHAHAHA esp yiss & hsc. the guys i mean. LOLOLOL. if xinyi went, she sure more huachi than me :3 heh buhbye!♥
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 12:40
30 October 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE IM BACK FROM SEC3 CAMP! :DD ♥
miss me? betcha did. :) well, the three day two night camp @ Kota Tinggi was... well. hear my stories kay! however summarised they may be...
day one(27/1o);
arrived in school at usual time. then we had our attendance taken then blahblahblah *skips abit* finally, we boarded the bus/coach! :D yeah. the journey there was about 2-3hours? or more i think. o.o sat with huili laopoh ♥. infront of me was... edwin! HAHAHAHA. and. kk. behind me was REGINE & SHERILYN :) regine that BIGBIG lamer. HAHAHA a joy to be with her man! :D we chatted, slept, ate, emo-ed(?), etc... then finally, we reached kota tinggi. took a boat which could only fit about 3o-4o ppl, but only about 2o++ ppl onboard.. so we crossed the river, and tadah! we're @ mawai eco camp. tsk. thats where our nightmare started.
had our groupings. me, huili, regine, sherilyn, edwin all under the same group; ALPHA! :D leader is daryl chang. :D hoho, he's a pretty good leader kay. however, clarissa was in bravo. ): poor thing luh, my clarissa ♥.
okayokay, skipskipskip. then its the first activity of the day ; river studies. HOHO. this is one of the slackiest one of all! all we had to do is... sit on boat, chit-chat, press few buttons, and thats it! :D i love it man. OMGOSHED. :D
okay, here comes the disgusting part; the jungle survive thingy -> SWAMP WALK. i tell you, it was absolutely disgusting. the muddy waters, the trees blocking your ways, the creepy crawlies found IN the water, unseen... ESPECIALLY LEECHES! i tell you, i was screaming and squeaking (SP?) my way through the forest. its damn freaking disgusting can. D: i suspect i got bitten by a leech. sucks huh. im sooo glad its over.
next was dinner, after wash up OF COURSE. hey, surprisingly, the food here is superb! :D its darndarndarn nice like mad. there were two cute lil dogs running around, which made quite a number of girls, including huili and charmaine, freak out. HAHAHAHA. omg i think they're cute though (: black doggie is oreo, while the brown one... err. hmm.
okay last activity, fireflies watching. cooooooooooool to the max, although its very eye straining. made my eye veryvery pain. but was on the verge of falling asleep... *yawn*
okay after that, little supper, and LIGHTS OUT. couldnt really sleep though. however i really thank God for listening to me, and helping me throughout the first day. yay!
day two(28/1o);
okay summarise!
kinda suck in the morning as huili and i couldnt do the water obstacles as we were having our period and stuff. you know. yeah, but water obstacle really freak sherilyn and charmaine out. thanks to regine and daryl who calm them down, respectively. HAHAHAHAH. sian. after that was the raft building. that sucks too. other groups, they had one UG person in their group, while my group? NOT EVEN ONE. damn suck, they took all the good people while they left SHIT (nothingness) for us. me, huili, edwin, sherilyn, regine, charmaine. yeap. eh charmaine damn pro. HAHAHAHA. she can tie knots :o however she's pissed off i think. D:
okay next. lunch, then went to the port (or whatever). didnt get on the boat with the rest of the class. me and edwin, plus one whole bunch of scary looking teachers, were together. sucks huh. all the people on the boat kept looking at us, like we were freaks. HEY WHATS YOUR PROBLEM?! damn you. get lost okay? stop staring, like you've never seen someone stranded before. laugh? stop your laughing before i poke a durian into your ass. i think cherynn tried studying my expression and feelings. too bad. anymore in-depth feeling, in my private blog. bye suckers.
okay skipskipskip.
reached tanjung sutera. chalet was kinda nice. :D shared room with charmaine.
next activity, my favourite, ROCKY COAST WALK ♥ HAHAHAHAHA. yaye. even though it was terrifying, worrying.. etc. its still my first experience walking on such rocks. was damn cool. seeing the SOUTH CHINA SEA ♥ . yaye its beautiful. great for couples, especially in the night :)
anw, after that we went to shower, then dinner. then campfire prep, then CAMPFIRE!
campfire was okay, its just that both 3a and 3b were self-entertaining. i mean, seriously! i doubt 3b can make out what we were doing, and i dont get the joke among 3b, they were all laughing and giggling! :3
okay, then sleepsleep time.
day three(29/1o);
hooray! finally last day of camp. it was unbearable. i really missed my bed, etc.
first, mangrove walk. it was okay, quite fun. muchmuchmuch better than swamp walk. at least, there's no leeches. HAHAHAHAHA.
then, pack up and lunch. after lunch, i walked out to the "balcony" beside the canteen. wow. i love the wind. its so, strong, that my hair kept covering my face. the wind was continuous. O_O yaye me, i could do alot of thinking there. :)
eh, heard from deborah that ppl from 3b was asking if me and edwin together. LOLOL. do we look like we are? we're just really really really really close friends, you know. who says you cant have a best guy friend? :D hahahah, we were in the same clique since... p3, which was like, in year 2oo3. (: so yeah.
okay then, the teachers told me and charmaine to clean up the rooms! whats wrong with it. isnt it supposed to be the people/workers here cleaning up? i know its wrong but, since we've paid for it...
okay, finally. HOME SWEET HOME. reached singapore at about 5plus 6pm. :D yay!
now, i kinda miss the camp, especially the rocky coast walk! :/ anw, i wanna thank God for being there for me, going through everything with me. and, plus thanks huili, edwin, regine, clarissa, charmaine. thank you guys very much. HAHAHAHAHAH! SMILE :D
okay bye. lazy to post alr. i want maple :3 ELEANORx3 in cass :D bye ♥
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 08:50
16 October 2009 ♥
HELLOS PEOPLE! yeah i know you missed me. HAHAHAHA!
okay updated results. roughly, cause i cant rmb all.
♥English ; C6
♥E Math ; C5
♥A Math ; E8
♥Biology ; A2
♥Chemistry ; C5 ):
♥Physics ; B4
♥Chinese ; A2
♥Combined Humans (SS/H) ; C6 i think.
HAHAHA! at least i see As. i love my chinese man. ♥ you know, actually chinese is a fantastic subject. the problem lies with the attitude in class and the teachers. we get lousy teachers, thats why.
okay just came back from the 52nd speech and prize giving day. utterly boring. really sucks. felt like falling asleep, you know, the feeling in class listening to some monotone teachers, with such a humid weather in singapore, especially its the subject you hate.. can you imagine? okay maybe not, but yeah :D
OH YA! our chinese holiday homework. every single holiday, the chinese department will have some, weird storybooks and worksheets to ENTERTAIN us during our holidays, as they're afraid that we'd get too bored in the holidays, nothing to do. yeah. should be grateful to them huh. -.- however, this time, we've got the CHINESE VERSION of toto chan! :D the girl by the window (: wheeees. ;D should be nice. but im more interested in the english version. hmm.
okay im really bored. and i really hope that i can play maple soon!!!
oh boy.
okay cya. im trying to see if there's maple patch or sth. well. bye loves!♥ love kimhyunjoong! HAHAHAHA! anw, join me at cassiopeia if you'd like. ELEANORx3 (:
i guess by trying to not look interested and sms you less often, i think the feeling, and pain would lessen. even though it still hurts, but.. since you left when i needed someone the most, obviously you dont deserve it... but.. idk what to do. you think you still have my trust? obviously not. as much as im always tempted to trust you, to give you and myself another chance, but i always flinch at the thought that you'd leave again. im not as strong as you think, as others think. im a person who looks strong on the outside, but my inner self is really fragile. damn. idk if this works, but, go away.
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 11:23
13 October 2009 ♥
Hellos people. ♥
just came back from school, and since today i dont have much on, i decided to came here.
somehow, it has been a rather sad and depressing weekend, &today and yesterday. partly is because of my results. well..
since yesterday, i've been getting back papers, and it was rather disappointing. i knew i didnt do well for chemistry. and chinese, perhaps. or rather, all the subjects okay?
but my results... i kinda think i deserved it. for not being motivated to start studying earlier.
well so, here are my results.. ;
♥English:
Paper 1 ; Section B 16/2o. Paper 2 ; 28/5o.
♥E Math: Total; 52/1oo [C6]
Paper 1 ; 37/8o. Paper 2 ; 57/1oo
♥A Math: Total; 37/1oo [F9]
Paper 1 ; 32/1oo. Paper 2 ; 28/1oo.
♥Chinese: Total ; 68.5/1oo [B3]
♥Combined Humans: Total; 53/1oo [C6]
History ; 52/1oo. Social Studies ; 54/1oo.
♥Physics: 66.5/1oo [B3]
♥Biology: 68.5/1oo [B3]
♥Chemistry: 52/1oo [C6]
okay ya whatever. lousy huh. damn this stupid thing, so freaking irritating. zzz damn it.
okay I've got no mood now. wont blog alr.
why is it that I've got to hear from others your feelings, and thoughts. damn why is it that i cant just forget about you and move on? i guess you already have someone you like. im feeling lousy because of you too. idk what i should do.
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 16:21
08 October 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLES!♥ finally i've finished my exams, and that i can play. YAY :D
during the exam period was like HELL. but thankfully, i've got my friends and God with me. yeah. i really wanna thank people like EUGENIA BOYF♥, huililaopoh, huifang♥, edwin, cherynn, and joyce. for being by my side, either encouraging, joking, or pissing me off. yeah THANKYOU GUYS ♥ :D YESYES ILOVEYOU!:D♥
okay, exams really sucked. i think im gonna fail a math and e math. i really hope i dont fail english and chemistry. oh boy, and my combined humans also!! i lost at least 32marks in a math paper one, and at least 39marks in a math paper two.
e math paper two also sucked. plus, the teacher who took my class is that minahkoh. like whats her problem. i dont like the way she treat students, as if we aint human beings with feelings to her. DISGUSTING. tsk.
and, i just realised that actually, mryuen really loves our class, but in his way. the way he treats us is extremely nice, and we're scared of him, even though he didnt really do anything to us. its natural. hmm. but at least, he trusts us. hmm...
hoho. i think having friends like mine is such a blessing, a gift from God. yeah. you know, even though my friends aint popular, but i feel that they're nice and genuine people. hohoho. sometimes i think that i've made a wrong decision to go 3a, but i suppose, thats where God placed me in. yeah. HAHAHAHA. okay.
yes i look forward to service. i love the youth service!
and youth camp is coming OMGOMG. i gotta save up man. D:
okay i shall end here. im feeling lazy to type. going out with JOYCEYAN&JULIA tmr. HAHAHA JJJ; JOYCEJANICEJULIA. :D but okay luh, julia must have some time with friends too. dont always follow boyf uhhhh! :x heh.
KIMHYUNJOONG IS MY BOYF. LOL. ♥ virtual boyf at least, [by virtual i mean imaginary.]
hoho lets hope, and pray, that i wont fail english. :/
oh ya, EDWIN! WE MUST PLAY MAPLE OKAYS. i'll re-download again. heh. if i have extra $$ i buy cash for you. heheh. :D
BYEPEOPLEILOVEYOU♥:D
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wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 11:54
28 August 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE!♥ dearest, i can use the comp again! whee! anw, at my aunt's house now. and blogger is still, siao. hmm. when will they fix that stupid prob!!! nvm, can post can alr.
anw, today's friday. came back from school. tiring day you know. most memorable thing today; CHINESE TEACHER NEVER CRY! and a math was super duper tough until you can cry. tsk. currently at proving of identities. its mad okay. but thank God mrs yock is our teacher. tsk. and, for the first time in history, I PASSED MY A MATH! B3! :DD YESYESYES. but, i dont see myself passing end of year. how do you expect me to pull my mid-year F9 up. mad isnt it. scoring A for a math @ end of year? nah impossible. hahahahah.
tsk, this time, one A1 nia, i think. my BIOLOGY♥! WOOT LOVE! dont know all my results yet, but..
♥English ; C5
♥Additional Mathematics ; B3
♥Biology ; A1
♥Physics ; B3
♥SS ; B4 i think.
♥History ; B3 i think.
thats all i know. hmm. anw, yesterday's timetable was, hor-ran-dus. tsk idk how spell luh. D: cause there's 6PERIODS OF MATHEMATICS. crazy, isnt it? two periods e math, FOUR PERIODS A MATHS. eh speaking of e maths, i think im gonna fail end of year. rofl. :/
hoho, so look forward to next monday. can see ex-ntps ppl!! YESYESYES! I MISS THEM! D: oh boy, time really flies. about three years ago, we were going to take PSLE, which i didnt give a hoot about. yeah. then suddenly, three years have gone by. fast, isnt it? i really really miss those days when we, my "clique"; laikuan, xinyi, edwin, me, yingying, fiona, xinpei, pingwei, julia, and some part-time "clique-rs", hung out @ the minglock cafe every day after school, then about 3plus 4, we went "loitering" around and playing block catching.. ice pops.. ah, those were the days.. sigh. now, the people have all changed.
oh ya, speaking of next monday, it reminded me of aces day. my class dance is okay. i think its nice, just that not the whole class was taught the dance steps until familiarized, or however you spell that. tsk. even though im not very happy with the way the dance was taught, but of course, we these people with no positions get no say. hmm. oh ya. THE CLASS TEE! at first, while they were choosing the colours for class tee, i think the choosing and voting is VERY UNFAIR. of course, we commoners dont get what we want, or rather, we've got no say. the "royals" chose lime green as colour, and to my horror, they were gonna put electric blue for the words. i've got nothing to say. plus, the shirt was intended to be v-neck. hell, if they had really gave me v-neck shirt with a super disgusting colour match, i wont turn up for aces day. BUT THANK GOD, the shirt was dri-fit, colour of shirt is dull green (i'd prefer brighter green though), words were BLACK, and round neck! :D yes at least i wont look like some weird person wearing some weird, tee. i must say, the design of the shirt is damn cool. hooray to josephine who designed the shirt. (: anw, i hope aces dance will go well, but my hopes of winning isnt high. hah.
well, im gonna end my post soon. anw, for the september holidays, im gonna MUG like some mad person, and study everyday for my finals. i cannot afford to fail any other subjects, other than a math/physics, which i dont have much confidence in. well, i really really wanna find people who really wanna study and form some study group or sth, on weekends. and, fiona lee. stop getting caught by teachers or whatsoever. I WANT MY MUGGING DAYS! ): slap you sia if you kena caught or get into trouble again. lol joking, but seriously, i wanna mug.
anw, im so looking forward to next friday. its my LAOPOH'S BIRTHDAY♥. yes i love her. lol. and we're going out. hmm.
okay i think i'll stop here. or not ppl say my posts like essays. HAHAHAHA! BYE PEOPLE!♥
PS. the ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni is super nice! but cunxi is damn jerk @ times, never treasure xinyi. and dylan is like, in every other korean/taiwan idol dramas, the guardian angel of xinyi. wheeeeeee. so damn sweet. i want a guardian angel too ):
HAHAHA KIMHYUNJOONG IS MY BOYF!♥ haha whatever :3
why am i feeling so emotional these days? i'd even cry when i watch Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni, even when sharing my blessing. it seems like, anything could trigger my tears.
watching the rain fall, at times i feel relaxed & clear-headed, yet at times, i feel alone, like nobody's there for me. sigh.
i know clearly that in no time soon, i'll be totally over him. thats an achievement. and, thank God, and for the people around. even though the phobia is still there, but its none of his business, like, really who cares about him.
God, thanks for every single blessing you've blessed me with. iloveyou♥ .
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 14:19
14 August 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE!♥ havent been blogging for like, 767836872364394 years. i mean like, yeah. anw, how're you guys? well, for me, it has its ups and downs.
school;
it has been a tough time in school. with me unable to handle both e math and a math.. oh ya, mr yuen ignored us for two horribly long weeks! its cause of some stuffs we did, which disappointed him. the whole two weeks were like, shit. it feels damn weird for the form teacher, esp mr yuen, to not care about the class. hey, we have feelings too right. at least i do; i can feel the weird weird feeling. edwin and huili agrees, i think. hmm. and huili was absent for more than a week! i missed her terribly. damn.
im quite glad that i see huifang making new friends (deborah), but seriously, the youknowwho has to STOP sticking to people like a GLUE. oh please, i think she's partly why huifang has low self-esteem. hmph. but nvm, HUIFANG ILOVEYOU♥! i'll always be there for you. with me around, NOBODY dares to bully you. oh, just found out that 3b guys are horribly messy. hmm. childish too.
the teachers are really really mad. giving us one pile of homework and tests to study for in a week, the next week they're angels who dont give homework. they're WEIRD creatures. teachers no offence though. OH YA! COMPLAIN QUEEN IS HERE! :D the current chinese teacher, chen lao shi, is HORRIBLE + TERRIBLE + VEGETABLE. hmph. really, she tries veryvery hard to act cute, but i think its really disgusting. she thinks she's pretty & people wanna look at her too. HAHAHAHA BIG JOKE OF THE DAY. plus, she really looks older than my mum, when she's like, 39 and my mum is more than 1o years older than her? oh what a joke. yet, she looks amazingly familiar to me. dont believe ask edwin. lol. we thinks she resembles someone's mother in my primary school days. :3
im really really afraid i couldnt score well for the end of year. e math, a math, biology, physics, combined humans (ss/history).. SIGH. heard that end of year biology exam will be set by bio tan. damn. we'll all flunk man. cause she's known to set killer papers and meant for students to flunk it. and, now my biology class is spilt into two groups, higher band and lower band. bio tan, taking the lower band, teaches like a machine gun. heard that their trainee/contract teacher teaches at an alarmingly fast speed, faster than bio tan. it has been proven; we're halfway through transport in humans, other class finished the chapter. we're halfway through respiration, they finished respiration & moving on to excretion. -.- isnt this mad. seriously, i hope that she wont be my biology class teacher, or i'll fail. damn. i wont understand what she's teaching. misslim is super nice! yay!
friends;
hey. first and foremost, i wanna apologise to all my close friends for my attitude and my temper these days. im really really sorry for my actions/words/attitude which may have hurt you. i sincerely apologise. and i wanna thank you people for staying by me, especially huifang, huili laopoh, edwin, eugenia boyf, weiling mei, yuwen, cherynn, felicia sweety, joyce, xinyi, janice twinny and many more. i love you guys ♥ ;D i really appreciate everything you've done for me. yeah!
and, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YUWEN, ESTHER, WEILINGMEI, XUETING, HUILINMEI, BK, YK, SY. [for as far as i rmb]. and, HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY WISH TO JOYCEYAN & HUILILAOPOH ♥ .
anw, really a BIGBIG THANKYOU to all my friends who've stood by me for the past two months. thankyou, iloveyou♥.
*PS. fiona, we're still gonna mug together for the end year exams right...?
ministry;
OH BOY, I LOVE SATURDAYS!♥ no really, i love 'em. cause its service and i cant wait for fellowship with my fellow unit members. :D HEHEHE! yeah! and i really really thank God for putting me under a shepherd whom i can communicate with, understands, and who cares for me. thanks cherynn!♥ i'll be there for you too. ;D anw, for the past few weeks, i've really been blessed by God, and thinks that i've blessed people as well. like, being there for others when they need you, or an listening ear, is a blessing to others right? hmm. yeah. anw, even though im still trying veryvery hard to accept and love everyone in the unit, i still think that its really nice for us to hang out together! i can just be myself. yeah. currently im working hard to prepare myself to be a shepherd. i really hope that i could get a sheep from my school, so that it'll make shepherding etc easier.. hmm yeah. i think i still have alot alot to learn about being a shepherd. hmph..
okay. today... ;
had chemistry & physics practical. physics was boring as usual. chemistry is full of FUN, JOY, LAUGHTER, PEACE. LOL. whatever. but its really cool, its just super hot in the lab. cause we were doing some heating. cool uh!
after recess was biology test. quite hard. and there's few questions which i know i screwed it. one question on the phagocytes and lymphocytes/red blood cell, that one. at first i wrote lymphocytes, but edwin was like, eh its red blood cell! then i changed that answer before handing in the paper. but sadly, the behind one no time to change. ): then it was a math. totally screwed my test as well. didnt manage to finish the paper. lost 5 marks. then i think i did wrongly for the third one. dang, there my marks goes. sad, aint it. it was the first time i was quite confident of my a math yet due to the time constrain, my confidence was shattered into pieces. damn it. why couldnt i have a peaceful math test without having to worrying that i might fail. darn it.
then it was chinese. the joke came into the class and there wasnt laughter today! ): why has one of my favourite subject become like some shit in the mud? i want the real mdmtan back. i dont like imposters. shoo!
after school, cherynn & i went tiong for shepherding. walked to redhill mrt & took to tiong. ate @ kfc, had shepherding @ mos burger. then i went to more than words and popular to purchase some-things. hmm. yeah then i came here.
and i dont know how to do my english. totally dont understand -.- help me, someone?
okay whatever. have to go. my english research & if there's time, bbf. ;D KIMHYUNJOONG IS MY BOYFRIEND. HAHAHAHA!♥
bye<3!
im trying. people says dislike/hate is easier to let go than love. is that so? no i dont think so. im trying so hard to love & accept, but i'll fail on the verge of success.
its crazy when you want to let go but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you're stuck right where you started. its so hard to think back on how things used to be and look at it now and realise that things are different, and they may never be the same. (haha, quoted from some picture)
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 18:20
23 June 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE!<3
went for holy spirit baptism today @ tiff's house. hmm. pretty house she has, its a condo :o i love the swimming pool, though we didnt swim there.
well, i really thank God for all the things he gave me, including the Holy Spirit. yeah. i'll try abit by abit. well. yeah. i was super nervous, i think, my heartbeat was supersuper fast!!!! AHHHHHHHHH *SCREAM*
hmm.
okay. currently at tiong lan with yuwen and meimei. gonna play maple soon. HAHAHAHA. enjoying the pleasure of maple, which will not last. well. i think when i complete my o levels, which is a long long and trecherous (spelling?) way to go, yeah then i'll be able to really indulge myself in the world of maple, AGAIN. HAHAHA. okay. i think i go maple alr. LOL here is too noisy and lag for me to watch BBF. ):
bye ppl. tmr central gender meet out. then i've really 0 time to complete my homework. thursday and friday i'll be a good girl and do homework. but seriously, i really dk how to complete my homework on time. it has been a super tiring holidays. busy. sigh.
but i'll trust that God's always with me to go through everything with me. yeah. <3
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 20:16
22 June 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE. im currently @ meimei's lan. (genesis) HAHAHAHA!! :DDDDDDD okay.
i hope i can play maple later. hmm. but i'll have to settle some stuff first. HAHAHAHAHA. :D
for the past few days i've been watching BOYS OVER FLOWERS :D super nice i tell you. hmm. im in love with jihoo. HAHAHAHAHA ROFLzxzxzxzxzx. okay whatever. -.- but he's darn good looking la. HAHAHAHA. okay.
yesterday watched boys over flowers @ my aunt's house with felicia & eugenia! HAHAH WE THREE ALSO LIKE JIHOO! :D hahahaha maybe if here got sound then i watch. LOLOL. but here all killing and slaghtering sound. D: BOOOO!
okay im gonna vote for extended holidays!!! YEAH! :D BYE PEOPLE.
kimhyunjoong<3!
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 17:08
18 June 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE. short post. gtg soon.
hmm. spent my day out with julia. went cineleisure's kbox until 2pm. shopped around orchard, bought a giodarno shirt. haha. took 123 here, my aunt's house. and BOYS OVER FLOWERS!♥
jihoo is like jandi's guardian angel. always protecting her, no matter what. i envy her. his actions, his heartache, etc. makes me cry. haha silly me.
actually junpyo also quite good. just that i dont like him being violent. and sometimes his way of loving jandi, to me, is wrong. hmm.
thats all i have to say. nights people. ♥
[boysbeforeflowers. kymhyunjoong♥.]
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 22:10
17 June 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE IM BACK FROM CAMP!!!! :DDDDDDDD
UNSTOPPABLE CAMP WAS AWESOME & FUN! :D
during this four days three nights of camp, i've learnt alot. i hope that after this camp, i'd be able to/i've learnt that ;
♥have the courage for evangalism. (for qtss!!)
♥grow in faith, believing that even there's noone with me, God's always with me no matter what, in times of troubles too.
♥help the cg to do something using my "talent"; leading in worship, etc.
♥inconsistency will cause me to backslide from God.
♥put all the dislikes, hatred etc behind, and love the ppl in my cg sincerely.
♥get along well and love my sheep mate.
and of course, including the three challenges that cherynn, my shepherd gave me.
also bonded more closer with some of the central bless-ed (spelling?!) ppl. :D like weiling, FELI♥, yuwen, eugenia, meimei, xueli, cherynn, annqi, etc. & thanks central b for the care and concern you've shown for me when i lost my voice. thankyou angela for buying me the drink. even though it taste awful, but i appreciate it. thank God for you people man!♥ i felt warmth, love, concern, bits of unity. i just hope that central b will be more bonded. we work together as one! :D yeah.. even though im still a young believer, but yeah...
well i really enjoyed myself, and God's words touched me during the worship times. i realised i cry alot during worship. haha... sometimes the teachings too. (:
well, its roughly like that. oh ya, last thursday we had a choir gathering :D it's so cool! nice to hang out with some seniors and juniors once in a while. (: well, i didnt know that charlene plays arcade! HAHAHAHA! :DD
anw, tmr we'll have another choir gathering, @ KBOX! :D yeah. but sadly i still cant sing. i pray hard that God will bless me, giving me my full voice for singing back when tmr comes. yeah..
okay, i go grab my lunch alr. after that will be... BOYS OVER FLOWERS! :D okay whatever :3 bye ♥
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 13:06
09 June 2009 ♥
idk why we're so apart now. ever since that incident, we seem to be like, worlds apart. it must be my fault, bcos you werent happy with me, i guess. i dont know what to do, except maybe, changing. but, whats the point of changing when im on the verge of losing people close to me? sigh i do not know what to do, or what should i do. God, help me. I pray in your name, that this darkness will be over soon, i hope. im at a loss. and i know that you'd give me a way out. thankyou lord. amen.
i dont feel well. starting to sneeze alr, and got flu. sigh. everything is going sooooooooooo wrong. bye, im outta here.
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 16:02
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HELLO PEOPLE. i feel super tired today. just realised my previous hot blogskin wont work, so i changed into this. pretty uh! :D yeah of course it is.
really, curse the weather alright. cause im feeling so drowzy, yet i dont wanna sleep. but then again, its super hot and its making me perspire and end up im super sticky. oh damn. i really hope it'll be cooler in camp.
oh speaking of camp.. UNSTOPPABLE CAMP IS JUST 3 DAYS AWAY! :D AHOY! i really pray that centralb will be the most hyper unit, considering we'll all be healthy. no fever etc. anw, this camp is all about GOD. yay. its also a best time to bond with the unit, esp the new believers. yes, and i love the queenstown unit. I THINK everyone's going. so yaye! :D God bless.
breaking dawn is really nice! well maybe not everyone will read the twilight series, but for an avid reader like me, i'll read. haha. even though my english isnt really that good, but i still managed to pass. and that, i consider, is very lucky, and good alr. its really a good book. you'll get addicted to it in no time. for me, once i start reading i find it hard to stop. HAHA! ♥ loves. (:
really, i've got alot of things on my hand now. cg, camp, choir stuff, outings, HOMEWORK... teachers are devils. this holidays is just like, normal school days, except that we have tons of homework, and we dont have to go school. its like, home-schooling. except that its worse, i suppose.
currently fasting from lunch now. or rather, i havent ate since morning, 12am. i'll break fast at about 6. or whenever i eat dinner bah i suppose.
okay im lazy to blog. maybe i go seesee facebook, then i go watch boys over flowers. i TRY watching. :x okay bye!♥
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 15:22
08 June 2009 ♥
HI PEOPLE! :D im at bukit merah lan now. hmm. yuwen and meimei playing audition. but idk how to play. lol, cant even do one fm la. -.- sian. but i feel like playing leh. how ar. :3 LOLOL. okay nvm.
yawn, im super bored. lolol. maybe going maple later :o idk. hahahaah.
its possible to love two persons at a same time. when edward left bella bleeding seriously, jacob came along to stitch (sp?) her up, to heal her wound. thus, bella loves jacob too. but bella is irrevocably in love with edward, the vampire. werewolf vs vampire, or jacob vs edward? hmm. :3
okay im really out of my mind. im alice cullen. (: ♥ lovelove. HAHAHAHAHA!!!
currently talking to yuxuan, in msn. long time never go out with her le :3 my another eating partner. i tell you. no matter how much she eat she'll never get fat!!! *jealous* :3 okay jealousy's a sin. but, whatever. :3
im super sian now. ): hmm. maybe i'll go facebook awhile. HAHAHA. PET SOCIETY LONG TIME NEVER PLAY ): HAHAHA. sian. *dies*
okay today got word for life. tmr idk what. wed cg, i want to go out with FELI!! ): hmm, thursday got choir farewell party, BUT got cg thingy. zzz. die. i both also want go. farewell party and that one only ONCE IN A LIFETIME. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA KILL ME. die. ):
okay bye, lazy blog le. jihoo rocks! ♥ even though i dont watch :3
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 20:43
05 June 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE♥! :D
went to taka just now, with my nephew, niece, cousin, aunt, uncle etc. :3 my nephew, kenny, went around looking at what, bakugun or sth. -.- some idk-what-nonsense, while i took my niece around to see dolls, stickers, &all those girlgirl stuff. :DD going out with my cousin has its advantages. she'll always buy something for us, whoever she brings out with. bought a jeans dress and sticker for my niece, bought some psp game and sth else for my nephew... as for me.. HEHEHEHE. i got myself Breaking Dawn, some pens, and 10 highlighters. YES IM HAPPY! :DD FINALLY, BREAKING DAWN ♥! but im gonna finish my second time reading eclipse before i read breaking dawn. hmm. :D yeah man! then ate kfc, followed by ICE CREAM! cookies and cream rocks the most. eew, choco mint SUCKS! taste like shit. :3
yeah. anw. yesterday... ;
went to escape with huili laopoh & edwin. not so successful though. i was the earliest, when i forced edwin to leave house. HAHAHAHA. then we waited for huili. hmm. went to eat long john. then took mrt to pasir ris. :3 long journey, i tell you.
upon reaching, we took 345 i think, to downtown east, and walked to escape. ooo surprise! while buying tickets, someone patted me on the back. i turned. OH HI STEPHANIE! :D oh pretty, it was a coincidence to see her here. :D steph, with some sec2 girls, i think. HAHAHA. & as three of the rides, inverter, rainbow & flipper is down at the moment, we got ourselves COMPLEMENTARY TICKETS for next visit! how cool can that be!! :DD
we went on in, we started off with FERRIS WHEEL D: as we were all very full at that time, we cant ride on the vigorous rides first. well, huili & i camwhored in the cabin :3 as for the pictures, im too lazy to post. want see, come find me. :3
after ferris wheel, we went to ride on the family coaster, go kart, wet & wild, bumper boat then ferris wheel again.. huili said she wasnt feeling well. tsk, first timers all liddat de. when i first ride on those rides, i also liddat :3 hmm, they made me feel very pro @ go kart! :3 damned, there's one primary school female kid middle-fingered @ me just bcos huili bumped into me for the go kart thingy. oh man. trying to act ahlian with me? cmi de la, that type. not happy with me say, mai humji then diam diam. not happy with me, come up to me and say, and we'll sit down for a talk. -.- no lifers, get a life please! kids nowadays are so rude and trying very hard to act lian/beng. one great example, my nephew. -.-
okay we shant talk about others. lets continue. anw brought huili to burger king to grab a bite and rest. that girl uh, tsk. im like her boyfriend like that, taking care of her in every way, caring & concern for her. :3 perfect boyf uh. too bad im not a guy. she says im like her sis. if she's my sis i wont really care. :3 im a bad sister, but good "boyf". HAHAHAHAHA. okay enough of being bhb. :/ meow. cute right :3
okay whatever.
anw, after that, huili went to play carnival games, hoping to bring a HUGE winnie the pooh home. but too bad, i've played that game before and its super hard to win D:
left escape after that. went to take bus to pasir ris station, then mrt-ed home.
yawn.
actually, i must thank God for what i get today. if not for cherynn cant make it for the meeting with hazel and angela, and i just got dressed and prepared to leave the house when they decided to postpone it. so i went straight to my aunt's house to find them eating lunch, my uncle, aunt and uncle's sisters. yeah. Thank you Lord, for whatever i got today.
okay enough of blogging. surfing the net is my priority now! :D bye people. im super bored in msn D: maybe i'll change blogskin :3
PS. my life is PERFECT w/o you, so be jealous! ♥
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 18:21
03 June 2009 ♥
HI PEOPLE. im currently in school. having a maths remedial. HAHAHA. so noisy :3
meow. im tired. later got word for life. after remedial going chiong to plaza sing meet them. having lunch together. speaking of lunch, im currently very hungry ):
okay will be a short one, thus. BYEBYE :D
PS. i'll be SOOOO over you. get out of my life man!!!
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 10:45
02 June 2009 ♥
hello people. havent post for very long. :(
saturday ;
special service, masquerade. well, the drama was well done. i enjoyed it. when they play "Love Story", feli and me was like, "we were both young when i first saw you. i closed my eyes and the flashback started, im standing there, on a balcony of summer air. see the lights, see the party, the ball gowns. see you make your way through the crowd and say hello.. little did i know, that you were romeo, you were throwing pebbles. and my daddy said, stay away from juliet. and i was crying on the staircase, begging you please dont go..." i shant continue. lol. outcome of lesson, everybody wears a mask.
then went to eat, slack etc. then went to eat with meimei, cherynn, yuwen. then went home with yuwen.
sunday ;
nothing much to say. just slept the whole day, and did abit of qt. then at night went downstairs to meet meimei, weiling, xueli, yuwen. btw thanks uh, the four of you. thanks for helping me. my prob is solved alr. i guess i was also at fault. btw, sorry, and thanks to my shepherd . ♥
monday ;
yeah WORD FOR LIFE! attended How to grow as a Christian course. met geraldine at plaza sing, but i was late, so she came to the mrt station. when i reached dhoubygauht, saw meimei aka teddy bear. her ruth lessons start earlier. haha. well. so the both of us went kfc to eat. bought 2 piece chicken. :3 hmm. saw julia, jaslyn and eunice there. hehe. XIAOQIANG! :DDDDDDD HAHAHAHAHAHA.
anw, went for the word for life lesson. all the young believers. learnt about fellowship (cg), reasons for fellowship, then about outreach (evax). yeah. the bridge diagram. O_O
anw after that, went to surprise reynard. yeah reynard's birthday haha! :D ate the CHOCOLATE CAKE. :3 went with xueli, yuwen, pearline to buy food :D pearline & yuwen went up first. chatted with xueli. hahahaha. xueli loves to bite ppl :3 hmm. went up to kids zone again. sat there eat. then xueli went to find annqi after annqi called me. but annqi came back again. lol. then xueli went missing. hahaha. anw. she came back. then i sat there and emo, while the rest played cards. haha before we left, the ghimmoh gang, xueli, yuwen and me trapped reynard inside. lol dont let him out. hahahaha. super hot sia. we demanded that he dance the "nobody but you" that part. LOLOL. but sadly never ):
then we went home. ghimmoh gang took 111 home. on the way home yuwen and i kept talking about R & J. LOLOL. idk how to spell luh :3 hmm. yuwen told me her story. so romantic luh. goshed. *faints*
okay. one last thing before i go.
HAPPY BELATED 15th BIRTHDAY EUNICE AKA XIAOQIANG!! :DDD ♥
rock on mann! :D
yeah! :D okay. end of post.
alice misses her jasper and wants her jasper back very badly. even though she know its the wrong thing. but, her jasper is just like her perfect prince, yeah. showers her with the love. not being about to contact him for so many days is like years to her. it just makes her fall deeper and deeper in love with him, uncontrollably.
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 15:33
29 May 2009 ♥
HELLO PEOPLE ♥ . pon-ed school today; sec3 sports carnival. im so not interested. anw the class can do without me, they came in first overall, i heard. hmm. woke up at 11+, showered, came here. hmm. im hungry HAHAHA.
anw, yesterday, we had the NE Learning Journey. reached school at 7++am. had morning assembly. then went back to class for some briefing. stupid, we were told to do an english brochure by mr yuen aka tang yuan, our form teacher. one of the requirements were that it has to be TYPE-WRITTEN. oh goshed. i dont have a printer, and it must be coloured ink. hello, coloured inks are way expensive, and the whole brochure MUST be coloured, or marks will be deducted. yet we cant write on the brochure. marks will be based on your creativity, language and content. like wth. spend alot of money just for a mere 3o marks? and misstan said it must be professional; it means, not advised to cut-and-paste. how dumb can it get? how do we estimate when to fold - would it affect our words (maybe you dont understand, but anw)?
okay enough about that. we had our breakfast in canteen. ate nasi lemak and kickapoo (spelling?). liyen, edwin, huili and me were talking about ghost stories. like, real life ghost stories which happened. HAHA, huili was soooooo freaked out. :3 anw, then we boarded the bus. sat with huili, edwin with liyen. LOL. this part, ROFL. huili, its our little secret :3 . anw, listened to music halfway, then heard that guide say, "unplug your earphones/earpieces okay, lets have some games" or sth like that. i was like, HELLO, some privacy please. the bus was freaking noisy, thanks to the people behind. wont say names, but roughly they know who they are. the lame games bore me and huili, as we continue listening to music. shhh ji mo bao zou by fahrenheit sounds nicer luh :D love that song ♥ . meow. hmm.
yeahs. first stop, fort canning park. near the ROM there. ooo so romantic. the weather became freaking hot after that. saw that biotan, drinking coke. D: roar. oh ya, that reminds me. LOL daryl randomly hit the coke vending machine thrice then $1 coin dropped out. then he was like, WAH! rofl. he bought coke. D: eeyer, stupid D:
2nd stop, esplanade. didnt do much there. our legs were damn tired, gonna give way alr.
3rd stop singapore river. finally we get to drink something & some went to buy ice cream. omg. really, the weather was damn hot. HAHA.
okay, then reached school at 1230. had to wait till 1pm for dismissal, but mrimran was in good mood, so he let us off @ 1245. went to koufu with huili, edwin and huifang. ordered fried fish u-mian, instead got fried fish ban mian. zzz. i gave that bowl to huifang, ordered another sliced fish u-mian. she wants to eat fried fish, thats why. haha.
then rushed home cause was meeting someone. fullstop.
im super duper bored now, and i think i'll go play maple. LOL. since edwin going maple. sian. but he playing gemini. and its all in CHINESE. *faints.
okay bye.Labels: shelooksforwardseeinghimagain'♥'irreplaceablelove.
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 12:47
27 May 2009 ♥
okay. i feel so, alone now. realised that cause of my own actions, that my close friends are drifting away from me. i feel very, out of place even when we recess-ed together. sigh. its my fault, dammit.
really, from the time i left p6 till now, i realised i've changed alot. from an innocent, always kena bullied, dont know how to defend myself, shy girl, to a very bhb (just for laughs), will speak up for myself, insensative to others' feelings, not-so-shy girl. idk, i wanted to make ppl laugh, but yet i end up hurting them. that isnt a good thing. i dont feel good, i think i really suck. i dont like, and i dont wanna hurt them. but im afraid that if i cant make ppl laugh, then they'll think im boring, then blahblahblah. just that, im really a badbad joker. i shouldnt joke with ppl again, saying those things which would hurt them. at this rate, if i keep doing that, i'll lose all my friends in no time. im being selfish, i guess.
and, my results really sucks to the core. people must be thinking that, why is this girl whose score is like shit in 3a. sure kena despise. but i just cant seem to do well, especially for maths. i wanna give up, and just dump everything aside. maths is pulling my overall down. i failed my a maths terribly, last in class for a maths.. and i really dont think anyone would have the patience to teach me in maths. i'll just pull 3a's MSG down. my maths is really super weak. i want to practice, but i cant seem to sit down, stare @ one question for 3-4hours, without knowing/solving the question, &with nobody's help. sometimes i think that im not fit to be in 3a, or even take a maths. but i really want pure chemistry. oh goshed, janicehohuiying, go die please, nobody cares. MY RESULTS, STUDIES & EVERYTHING SUCKS. shoo.
sigh forget it. suddenly feel like going to some seaside/beach & just scream. cant take it. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!Labels: iwishyouareherewithme.
wanting to let go but i keep holding on. ♥ 18:54